生命的成长

一个生命，要经过多少的破碎、多少的泪水，才能成长。
2010年，我称它为“修剪之年”。在这一年里，发生的事实在太多，认识的人也渐渐多了起来，看到的事情也特别多。但感谢神，整个过程中，都是在学习。

一棵树的成长，除了需要水、阳光的灌溉，也需要经过修剪，把不能够成长的东西剪去，才能够结出更多果子。在修剪的过程中，往往都会很痛、都会非常难挨。但只要忍着走下去，就会看到树上会开始有改变，果子也慢慢生长出来。

今年，已经21岁了，真不知道如何来迎接自己就快要老一年了。但我们又能够做什么呢？除了继续寻求神的带领，没有别的了。

“神哪，我知道我的一生都在你手中，

唯有你是我一生的满足，

在我最困难、最痛苦时，

你没有撇弃我，也没有丢弃我，

谢谢你的恩典慈爱常与我同在，

陪我完成生命的幽谷。

求你预备我，成为你手中的器皿，

我要将我所有的顾虑毛都交托给你，

给你掌权！耶稣，你是我的神！

我爱你！”

亚太特会

29Nov-2Dec.
Im attending ya tai te hui. This is the 4th time I participate in ya tai. And I am saying, I growth from here ev time. Seeing the children growing, seeing the Junior Youth growing, and this is our prayers always. How many tears we used to planned in all these plants. It is UNCOUNTABLE.

After all, I would said, Praise to the Lord. and only His plan to be succeed in this generation. Amen

Holiday 1

I just went langkawi last sat for a trip of 3 days 2 nights with my current classmates. the trip is wonderful as every play their role. Like William drive, Yi Wei be navigator, maggie plan, Moon book ticket, Casey bring us go different place. We are really enjoy the moment we spent there in the island.

We play, eat, chit chat, shopping, sleep together. The only thing I can say is, we enjoy it very much. Althought there are some "fire" happening, everyone seem to pass the obstacles that we are there to enjoy but not complaining.

In the trip, I learn so much from them and I get to know them closer. =) And I felt Im abii pai seh. hehe. guess what... ....

Through it all, I enjoy the 1st trip to Langkawi. =) love the chocolate shopping the most.. I buy RM180+ choco. nice.!

Anyway, longing for the next trip aheading!

yea

it was 26 Nov 2010. almost to the end of the year. let's see what I am been through. Count the blessings of God =)
1. Finish my advanced diploma and heading towards Degree.
2. Started my career for 1 years.
3. Maintained my result in first class
4. Knowing my direction clearly.

This year the most I am grateful is, I become blessings to most people around me. especially in their study. I hoped I can continue broaden my knowledge in this and bless people around me.!

In cell, I dun see much grow, but I give thanks for the growth anyway =) anyway, I was enjoyed!

thanks God that I reach out to teo big group of people. One is colleague in my school, and one is classmates from my college. they are all so great people, nice, friendly.

Thanks God for everything!

不知道

惨了！

我又来有压力了！

请你们不要给我压力，可以吗？

Love

刚才把自己放在祷告里面。原本的我，只想为自己那复杂的心情来祷告，希望自己能从主耶稣那儿得些力量，能够在现在的光景里继续走下去。

喔，正当我在祷告时，奇妙的是，我祷告到一半，我的祷告词变了。我开始为灵魂来祷告，我一边哭，一边祷告，一边祷告，一边大哭，觉得自己整个人丰丰富富地在神的同在里，就在哪里呼求耶稣！

我看到很多失丧的灵魂，正如有一首歌一样，他们正在角落头发抖，不知生命的去向。因此，我祈求神，给我一个机会，站在他们中间说话。我为着灵魂的热诚不要因为任何的事情中断。我要更爱耶稣，同时，我也要更爱灵魂。

我爱你们！

CHANGED

in a christianity lives, I realized there is really many things to learn.
Over just a day of today, I learned a lot from different happenings, people, situations.
AND each experience tell us we are actually got to learn new thing already.

When looking at Pharisees in the bible, sometimes I will think that I am one of them.
My thoughts are God's words but my heart are not.
In such way, I will need to look back how Jesus live with God's words in thoughts and heart and action.

AND I learned,
no matter where Jesus go, He serve various of people.
No matter he os she is blind, deaf, sinner, enemy and etc.
His love to them seem never fail.
well, now look at ourselves,
do we really like those Pharisees in the bible??

I lose a lot of my friends in my secondary life.
They used to be very close to me,
spending time study together, go pasar malam together,
having big events together, singing k together,
bbq together, yam cha together and etc.
but those memories had been HISTORY when I started to said:
    No, sorry. I have prayer meeting
    No, Sorry. I have church service
    NO, sorry. I have something to do in church

when time go on, they won't sms u anymore,, no!

Therefore, I tell myself, I need to walk out fromt this trap and win people continuously in HIs Kingdom.
AMEN!

Fly

I wish to fly from here.. If I can :)

中秋节

今天是中秋节了。小时候，父母亲告诉我，中秋节的月亮是特别的大、特别的圆，代表一家人可以团圆。今天是我的婆婆出殡后的一年，她很疼我们，但她的离去，使我们感到非常惊讶、伤心！

婆婆曾经相信耶稣，不知道她会去到哪里呢？

我是家里第一代基督徒，也是第一位！但我还是要宣告：耶稣是我家之主、至于我和我一家都要侍奉耶和华！

今天心情也较纳闷、较复杂，真的很想找人给我一个拥抱。但希望自己能够坚持走下去，直等到主耶稣再来！

新妇的祷告：主耶稣，我愿你来！

Jenny：为主来梦想！

Sad

was really get annoyed in the feeling while sending off the last message to u =) dunno la, I felt very SAD for this generation. Dunno izzit because I dun used to enjoy life, therefore, I will felt so!! our youths are stopped to inspire, this is also include me when i said our youths. In the school, if they dun stand up and take those authority place, and I would said, people will be swayed away by those authority people.. And so happened to our youths when we tell others we are very busy with church ministries, so we dun have time to take active in co-co or whatever.

when im a high school student, I was a prefect that respected by others. I used to be active in co-co and also try my very best to get the top result. I dun let myself to drop off any chance to lead.. as i know clearly, if we din did well in or life, dun expect people will know Jesus tru us..

Generation, ur generation is facing greater challence than our generation. therefore, u guys shud awake and shine. Dun hide behind the wall anymore! u guys can make a great difference when u all do so.. come on, did something and no more play seek and hide..

God of this City

God of this City

 This song was flowing in me just now.. And it touched my heart when we seem like failed..
keep ur eye on God!

[Verse 1]


You're the God of this City

You're the King of these people

You're the Lord of this nation

You are



[Verse 2]

You're the Light in this darkness

You're the Hope to the hopeless

You're the Peace to the restless

You are



There is no one like our God

There is no one like our God



[Chorus]

For greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done in this City

Greater thing have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done in this City



[Verse 1]



[Verse 2]



There is no one like our God

There is no one like our God



[Chorus]

For greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done in this City

Greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done here



There is no one like our god

There is no one like our God



[Chorus]

Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City

Greater things have yet to come

And greater things are still to be done here

他

他~ 是个全心爱神、相信神的人
他~ 是个爱我的人
他~ 是个爱我和他家人的人
他~ 是个用心待人的人
他~ 是个喜欢小孩的人
他~ 懂得分担我的烦恼
他~ 爱读圣经
他~ 是个力求上进的人

21 岁

我已经21岁了！多么希望我的白马王子快点出现，让我品尝爱情的滋味。看见身边的朋友出来时，又或是在面子书里，都会有另一半的相伴，感觉真的是不好受！（没有人会好受）。但感谢主，我还懂得Control 自己。

感谢神，让我能够坚持21岁的原则到今天，使我能够为我的另一半做好准备。我要把我的第一次恋爱给他，也希望他是我的丈夫。眼看自己的年龄不小了，但我爱的人还没有行动，爱我的人我又不爱，都不知怎么是好。但感谢神，我没有被这些事情困扰，反而更加相信神在为我预备，也在预备我的另一半。哈哈…

如果我爱的人向我表白，我想我会哭出来吧！真希望这会发生，有期待是好的，嘻嘻。希望他不会介意我的学历高过他，反而他会用心爱我，我也会用心爱他，在真理上彼此鼓励、造就，去维持之间的感情。

我希望我们会拥有共同的目标、共同的信仰、共同的原则、共同的观念，也许整个过程中，我还会以泪相伴，但相信每滴的眼泪是我们要看见的果子！正在想象自己在未来与他服事的样子，如果能够飞来飞去，那该多好啊！

也更希望我俩的感情见证是能够祝福身边的人，特别是青少年，让他们以我们为骄傲、为荣，正如我以我们的青少年副团长为荣一样。嘻！

我觉得我的另一半，应该是一个很有信心的人。因为我是一个信心很弱的人，这样神才可以透过他提升教导我信心的功课！真的很期待他的出现！

Mission

承接恩膏 扩张领域

成就神国度

tOday!

Realizing,I am a litte bit sot sot recently..I laugh very loud, very funny.. haha..

is that called smiling from heart? huh,i hoped so.. But then I loved the time i laughed.. It's a joyful thing to laugh like that uncontrolled..

During praise and worship today, I felt the peace from the Lord came to me, visited me so closely, near my face.. I felt Im growing in Jesus.. I know how to love jesus from my heart.. There's a song I learned in children time:

I Love u Jesus, deep down in my heart (x2)

Thought about deep deep down down, deep down in my heart (x2)

As a leader, I know I shud growing every day in Jesus.. more and more longing for His words! So, I have decided to follow Jesus.. and cast out all my worries to Jesus.. My family, my relationship, my marriage, my studies.. I couldn't imagine that what I will be if I live without Jesus. huh..

Lord, help me not to forsaken You in my life, help me to love You more, trust You more and participate in every sort of my lives.. My life is on your hand! I love You =)

today

most of the times, our feeling easily swayed by others. Just like just now, i talk something sensitive to him, seem like making him angry. But after all, I knew, I talked for his own good. If he wanna changed, this is beneficial to him, but then if he choose to remain same, then I have no responsibility on him anymore. I did my part.

It's true when I see him so quiet, and I was feel annoyed. Am i talking too heavily for him? but after all, I have peace in my heart.. he choose to grow or not grow!!

well, I should commit this to the Lord and pray that he will get well soon with his feeling. =)

Was thinking this in my mind just now!
thinking, if I am taking a grateful exam on the study of being grateful, how many mark I will get for this paper? I guessed I will may be fail or just pass!

Anyway, this is the homework we shall learn in our lives. If not, we won't be satisfy anything until the last breathe. A people with grateful heart will happy always, I agreed with this =) you?

Therefore, I would like to give my best always to get distinction for this subject, to delight God in my life. Amen!

感谢神

小孩，在我身旁围绕，

小孩，在我身旁欢笑，

小孩，在我身旁游戏，

小孩，在我身旁歌唱。

我的身边每天都有小孩的声音，

听见他们那还没被玷污的声音，

又天真、又活泼、又可爱，

使我真的感恩我是他们的老师。

很多人没有机会接触到这么多小孩，

但神却允许我在教育界里生根发芽，

不知怎的，我觉得很开心、兴奋。

开心的是，我少走了一些冤枉路来寻找自己的工作，

高兴的是，神在一直为我预备，

没有缺乏、没有忧虑。

是的，我选择了对的使命！

对的呼召！

因此，我更要依靠上帝，

去成就神所量给我的，

并要得那地为业不可！

LOVE

What do u think about LOVE?? try to look on tis picture carefully and answer that in your heart of this question.. WHO LOVES U? who never failed to love u?

Love can be from your parents, siblings, your partner, your friends, but how long do it last? have u ever ask this question? =)

I am a normal girl who also longing for relationship with others. I love my parents, my siblings, my students, my friends.. Although I not yet find my another half, but the love for the him is still exist..

Bible said:
爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。爱是不嫉妒。爱是不自夸，不张狂。不做害羞的事，不求自己益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶。不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理。凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。爱是永不止息。

thia is the definition of a true love.. after reading thiss, we might disappointed aas we will never find these love in our life except we experienced from God. The relationship build on this will be blessed! So, my future husband relationship will be based on this indeed! hehe..

Lord is preparing Him on the other hand for me, and he also preparing me for the present to him.. haha.. this is relationship.. Every relationship must be rooted in God! i believe that!!

Encounter Camp (27-28 August)

I was back from Genting this morning 3am, and I was said, this is a good camp! Although I just managed to attend one day, but I felt satisfy with that to spend the time with fewer of them, especially my cele members.. Eating with them, listened sermons with them, sleeping with them. I love Peace Heaven!!

And what I am grateful is I get to know this pair of Holy Couple, Ps Lay and his wife. They are ssuch a model couple that I ever meet. Especially Ps Grace, her heart is really a woman's heart. She make clothes for her husband, cut her husband hair, learn cook dishes for her husband, delighting her husband's mom.. I was so surprise there are a such perfect woman in the earth! I hope I could be like her. Yet, I know, I shud always get ready myself for my best and the only one husband! He is coming to my life sooner! haha..

Well, over their ministry, I could ate their ministry fruits. I believe, not only me, is everyone there in the camp! And this is what we always as a minister seeking for- people could eat the fruits on our tree, and they will happy with those fruits they are bitten. Their ministry reminded me to always bear fruit in the spirit, serving God with a longing for fruitful life. I was so blessed with what they sharing indeed!

Another thing I realize is my passion towards the children. I have been appointed to a doom that have 4 kids inside out of 19 people. And 4 kids are mutiple, they brought their group of people come and jump in my double tackle beds and singing, dancing, laughing, distribute sweets together, games.. I was like oh my God!! But then I didn't stop them just ask them to turn down their volume, as Jesus said, dun stop the children. This is their lifestyle! haha.. The most suffering is the kids are party-ing when I need a nap. In that moment, I really seek help from God, at the end, they said this, Jenny che che is very tired, so better we turn down our voice, I was so grateful with them and their appearance make my life lighting! I love them as my children too ==) Their conversation keep flown in me always making me prouf of having them! haha..

kids and me! they are thong, Joey and hui Ying!

she slept beside me!

this is me!

Here are some photos I will uploaded. Hope this will always be my memories to couraage me up for the better tomorrow in some days.. I believe each experience I am been through now is a breakthrough for me! and this ask me to learn, and I was benefit after each time. Rom 8:28! yeaH.. add oil, Jenny!

Ps Tryphena with NLRC Childrens

Here are the picturea I promised! Wonderful!

Pastor Tryphena asking Berlinda for demo..

Children are paying their 100% attention!! Dun talk dun talk, jenny che che and team are looking at u!

the one with long hair, dressed in green and white, wearing name tag is me!!

demo!! We can hold hand after asking for permission!! dun simply hold people's hand!

See?! they are good! I love them!

生活

已经早上两点多了，但我还是非常活跃！期待着就要开始的经历神营会，有点好担心 = 兴奋的感觉。期待神要在我们的里面要成就的工作，恨不得打开自己，赤裸裸地在神面前，毫无保留地把心里面所挣扎已久的，通通都卸给上帝，不要带下来！

神哪，我知道你托着了孩子的每一颗眼泪，我真的很想找到我生命中的以利亚，在我生命最不知所措、最枯干、最无助、最想要有肩膀时，给我一个及时的拥抱、关怀、鼓励！我不敢向人敞开，唯独文字可以成为我的抒发工具。至少，透过文字，我找到我自己的日记，就在哪里，我把我的开心、伤心变成文字，然后这些文字就会好像音符般地飘起来！真的，透过文字，我找到了一个让我抒发的对象。

生活中面对种种的压力，家庭往往是让我流眼泪的，因为这个家多么的需要耶稣的爱。第二是服事，小组组员面对的问题，就好像是我的问题一样。但相信，神透过眼泪再次地提醒我，我只是耕耘的，要依靠上帝，遵守上帝的话语！等候上帝，才是最重要的！因为等候耶和华的，就必重新得力，如鹰展翅上腾！

让我最感恩的是我的工作和学业，因为在这两方面，我都会尽我的最好、尽我的可能去做到最好。从小，我就抓住这一点，如果我的成绩不比别人好，我就不能够为主作见证！其实，我的成绩绝对不会比他们好，但是我却深信，当我在努力时，是耶稣在背后为我默默祷告、为我加油！=)

我不能去想象没有耶稣的生活！耶稣就是我的一切、我的答案！

children church 24 Aug 2010

today ia an awesome day. after tiring from meeting then joyful day, night time is most i appreciated the most- children church. i felt each time my heart is rejoice with strength when talk abt children in our church, although in tired. They are awesome, great, obey, cute.

The class start at 8pm with Pastor Tryphena Low in us. her sharing is awesome! every kids are attracting on what she shared and even responsed to her very good. She shared abt love today and bodies as the creation of God to our kids, I would said, everybody including the teachers are beneficial for that, even myself!

She used games for an ice-break and she did use demonstrates, storys, slide shows to tell the kids to prevent from unnecessary hurts indeed in our daily especially in boy and girl relationship. =) This is a need while I am a class teacher..

We end it by prayers with yabisi's prayer. And this is the time I see children's truely heart. they are willing to give when they are blessed.. this is the habit that each children shall have. A given heart =) I need to learn again from children.

I will uoload some pictues when i got them !

I have been to watch this movie today at Dream Centre. At first, I don't feel like going although I have a ticket in my purse already. I just decide to go this morning. And I was said, it's fanstastic and thanks God to let me be there..

The movie start with a warmest invitation from 2 artist (I not really know them), but I thanked God at the moment in my heart that God had placed them among the artist to glorify =) After that, we have 2 songs of worship by Prof Yap and her team.. then it's the time Ps Jaeson Ma come to the stage and share a little bit about this movie.

The movie came to climax when started to shown! I was see 6 countries which is on the revival train now, and those countries are in Asia. They are China, Korea, Hong Kong, Taiwan, Singapore and Indonesia. God had turned all the impossible to the possible one.. I was like burn in my heart, what I can do for this land that God had given me.. Ps Jaeson Ma tell us, this movie is not just a show, but a calling to all Christian. he ask us to get ready for that..

I said, yes Lord, reveal Your will tru this movie.. there are some sharings I grab:
- A christian doesn't bring people to encounter God, is empty.
- We are to live for Malaysia and die for Malaysia
- When u are in more understand abt the greatness of God, the next step is think about ways to share and tell people.
- When u become Christian, u r never think of to be example to others. But in such a way, u are already example to the other.
- Not about your life, but His mission
- Everything GOd given, it's not for you, but for His purpose.
- Daniel live his life of pray, fast, passion, faithful
- Sacrifice what u love for the salvation

We have 3C's
- Culture
- Creativity
- Christ Jesus

what we should do?
- Pray
- Go
- Send
- Mobilize..

Each of the words are on my heart now! =) and the most grateful thing I would to thank is, my best fren, Li ting had accepted the Lord.. she meet God in such a way that I was also surprised with that! thanks God again =)

Cell members! =)

was read many things on the website just now.. got good and bad de,,
but dun talk bad thing, i was appreciated when i read one of my cell members'post! she talk about her dad, mom, sibling, best friends.. And most come to my surprise is, she include my name in her blog.. and from there only I realize, I have a great character disciple =) u know why? from the way she wrote the whole thing, knowing she is an appreciated type pf person..

This girl is actually impacting a lot in my lives through the blessing life she live out! I hope she really can grow in her spiritual healthy in the way of growing, so that Jesus always be the answer for all her problems.. Through the way she speak, and even her lives, I saw Jesus is keep characterizing her to become more like Jesus.. She never fail to tell her friends about Jesus in her lives.. People might questioning her, why u go church so often, she cried when she tell me this.. perhaps, she can't answer them.. and i know, this is because Jesus is really live to her life, and she had put church as part of her life.. She even posted church logo in her blog..well, i can said, she is the most mature Junior youth i have seen among the group.. she is great!

well, i thanks God that i have a group of Junior Youths who supporting me whenever i need them. Although my time is pack and I couln't spend my time out with them personally, they never give up in attending cells, never stop to encourage me always.. =) girls, i juz have my prayers to God, that u all are walking within His plan, never give up in serving, learn to deal with God everytime crisis come.. Be shine like stars upon where u all standing, testify jesus wherever u all are in.. Jesus never fail!! =)

I was get touched with this photo just now after my frstrated mood!! some how i felt she is me.. Well, pray over myself now for that! Get well soon, Jenny! =)

lose

It was long time i didn't blogging.. huh,, I think this is the only place I can write what is inside my heart =)
I was felt frustrated always when think of that! I hope I never participate it.. Haizzzz, i also dunno what the decision I should take. Either any of them also I felt furious.. But no way for me to express, I don't have way out, unless still TAHAN tAhAn!!

Who can understand me??

=)

my life on His hand in the year 2010

Well, quite a few week not blogging already =) anyway, i wish to give the greatest glory to Jesus, the one who look after my life each time~

Second is to all that participate in my life such as ex-classmates since primary-secondary-college, church friends, pastoral team, current coursemates, my dearly cell members, my students, my cousins, my relatives aand of course my parents!!

I would really give thanks upon the Lord for the year 2010 where out church lauched the year as "the year of God's love".. I was felt glad and glad that as long I am enjoying my life now although it had becoming much more busier already!!

I enjoyed the time with the kids and I had finally found my passion.. Kids, ur life is sparkling in me, inspire3d me a lot. Especially when teaching in the school, I felt that the Lord had really placed me here for His purpose.. Those joy im enjoying now is really can't describe with just words alone. Thanks God, im enjoying every little moment now and im looking ahead on what U want me to do..

Yet, Hi Ne Ni.. Lord, Hi Ne Ni..... .. ..

COUNTRY - Malaysia

Just now I went to GLOBAL PRAYER MEETING.. Can't use word to describe what I am feeling now. Just felt excited. I was like just went to a conference this few days..

The 1st day is A4J Prayer Meeting on last two days. I think it was the the most unforgetful A4j prayer meeting I have seen before. Because we never expect that the hall will be overflow and even, more than overflow. As the number of people attend is more than our church service, and the point is, most of them are YOUNG PEOPLE who will take tis land.. Amen!! Some more hor, some of them were coming with their school uniform. I guess they just finish school. I was so shocked with their enthusiasm in the prayer!!

Wel, we have a great worship from Esther and Song Beng and their team. Wonderful and enjoy in the presence of God although I still need to serve as computer control!!

And this morning, I was listened to Pastor Lawrence preaching on the mission week in Cheras, cause Y'day Im serving children in PJ. It was another good sermon. And what is touching me is the life of those kids in the video clip. And clinging back what Pastor Lawrence sharing, I felt that what Im doing now is just very very little. Well, i think I need to back to the Lord for that and really pray that I can walk another miles for God!! Give me strength O lord.

Well, come back to the title. I was so touched when God ask me this question when we prayed for Malaysia. How many times u will think of Malaysia when u pray alone? I was stunned there and started to think, well, my ans is very less!! And there's an urge inside my heart and ask me, then what for u just pray for ur land just in the service like that.. How much u spend on to pray for the country needs?? I was really repend for that.. Cause I can't count the frequent of my prayers upon the country, not bcz of I too often to pray, but is bcz of i very vey less to pray!! Abba, forgive me! I will pray more for the country starting from now. Until Malaysia is born in me!Amen!

Jenny, Don't waste your time

Actually i shall blog this last nitez, but because of the poor line, therefore I give up and give myself a good sleep~

Never mind, here I am again!! yea!!

Mom is asking me a question Yesterday morning about how I am gonna to celebrate my 21st birthday? I tell her I am no idea about that! she just said that u try to think about that, as 21st Birthday is just have ONCE only in everyone's life...>>>>>>>

Suddenly, Im STUNNED!! Oh ya, Im getting 21 years old soon. Although in my mind i clearly know that I am 21, just dunno why I will shock when I listen that.. It was like keep questioning me this question.. DO u know u are 21 years old edi???

My mind couldn't answer that actually!! But I knew, I have do nothing in the 21 years old.. Really NOTHING AT ALL.. Sometimes, would really felt very tired being so in such life that seem like no means.. I would really hoope I can put down all things in Malaysia and leave another country for may be a week or a month to really quiet myself. And my 1st choice is, Korea.. Which I had longing it for years... Korea, I would come and visit u one day, and the day will be soon and soon.. I love the prayer atmosphera there la..

Well, I need to really grab the time la.. Since I felt myself doing nothing..

Last 2days, I sent Esther a message about my receiving. I start my message with this words: "Today reap", what i told her is about my receiving on the words of God. I hope that sooner, each of us will tell the leaders about the "story of today reap", but is on how many sould have receive the salvation. I think this day also sooner!! Yea. Amen!!

We will never see the result until we step the first step out! Acts 29

5月16日的祷告

祷告在主你的面前

因你说祈求就得着 寻找的就寻见

叩门 你就为我开门

因你说 全世界惟有你 万事都可能

我高举双手将心献上迫切寻求你

当我深渴慕你爱你我的神

当你奇迹一日不彰显 我心就不满足

只想看见你大能降临我们中间

我献上感谢 你为我所做一切

深知道你永不改变 经历你每一天

我献上祷告 祷告你成就大事

愿等候你所应许的那日来到

 

-约书亚团队-那日

 

刚才在祷告时，这首歌就在脑海里，连忙找了这首歌，感觉每一个字，就好像是生命中对神的呐喊一样！

上帝，我知道过去的几个月我好像退步了，甚至我也没有想过要选择他出来，不但如此，我还选择逃避。上帝，对不起！

 

但现在的我，要选择重新调整自己，准备自己在进入新的里程碑。但我需要一个愿意监护着我成长的以利亚，求你差派他来到我的生命中。我愿意接受神给我的严厉装备！

装备的路程不好走，也没有人告诉我这条路很容易，其实，就这就是依靠神的道路。我不想与你的国度脱节，我要赶上这一列火车！！

 

求你帮助我，我要看见神迹就在我的生命里，使我成为你的器皿。我不求做那被重用的，但我求我要时常为你装水倒水的那一位！

耶稣，我抓住你得不够，我要更加抓住你！！

 

 

OVERCOME!!

Was is a very frustasted mood now.. Dunno by what reason??

Was finding a way out... Hope I can overcome it and find out the reason and said to the problem in the name of Jesus.. As such mood is really annoying.

Wel, I think I bette back to His words.. Overcome spirit!! thanks God!!

Part of my life

was beem tru a very tired day today. But just enjoy it somehow, especially the service today on Pastor's sharing.

was actually very very tired after a full days of NON-STOP events here and there. Be frankly, I was really cant focus on the worship when i just stepped in the hall. I try my best to get involved with that, but i failed to get myself enjoyed >>>>>>>> Regret why i didn't join the pre-service prayer!!

Even during the offering message, sorry that i cant really give my attention toward Sis Doreen which is sharing a great msg on offering..... But after give onto the offering, I went toilet to give myself a face wash and I moved forward for another line to receive the words of God..

Amazingly, my attention is back although im wondered I can give attention on what PAstor going to preach today. Each of Pastor's word had touched my heart deeply as this is the message that I got it since last Saturday. I remember well that I couldn't sleep just because of that. "Baptist JOhn said: 天国近了，你们应当悔改!"

I hoped that everyone can really get what the message is about deeplt. Even to my heart, I believe that God still will speak continuous on that as this is what God want to highlight it to His people.. Lord, i just want to be some after ur heart. teach me O lord!!

Reborn

this phrase was coming again in my mind today...
I was praying for some leaders today in my prayer this morning before i going to work..
Before the prayer, I just tot wanted to bless the leaders, but something in my heart felt that it's not enough and I continue my prayers..
After few seconds, my tears dropped but my prayer doesn't stop!! My tongue like keep prAying and my tears are just drop and drop..

After the prayers, I STUCKED there for awhile.. And i asking, what had happened ah? I would believe that the spirit of God is strongly in the midst of my prayers just now.. This is actually is my CONFIRMATION on something from the Lord.. It forced me to seek the Lord in a highest palace.. Therefore, God had prepared me something tomorrow!! And I able to response it... I hope I can really work it out then...

the Lord allow a reborn in me!! I love you Jesus!!

Tortoise & Snail

This is a TOROISE.. ..

This is a SNAIL.. ..
What do you will think off when people are mentioning these two animal?

Definitely, is SLOW right?

Yup, they like to climd.. as they dun have leg..

During the prayer meeting just now, a song lead told us abt the vision he saw..

He said that he saw a tortoise is climbing with its shell, and it had wound on its body..

He asked to imagine, how suffering the tortoise is if climbing with the wound...

On the moment, I have some tot came into my mind too.. ..

It's abt SNAIL!!

Today, Im teaching my Std 2 students a new word - "SNAIL" in mandarin..

And a student raise his hand up, and ask me one question.. ( He likes to ask those weird question indeed, and his question always bring fun to the class)

He's asking: "Teacher, may i ask, since the snail had already climbing that slow, y it still want to carry the shell leh?

And I just ans his question like this, bcz.. .. ..

"This is God's creation 2give it protection..

But then, during the p&w, I recalled this scene again...

God told me, u r just like that snail... walking slowly slowly>>>>>

I give u the shell is to protect you.. just like ur spiritual covering from ur spiritual parents...

I was thanked God that I had few spiritual parents who support me all the ways along...

Never think that u r slow because of the shell...

Think it in this way, the spiritual covering is to let u go further~~

Bless you!!

P.U.S.H

P.U.S.H stand for Pray Until Something Happen.

This is the 2nd time in the week God told me this sentence.. 1st is in Pastoral Conference on Tue and 2nd is the A4J Prayer Meeting just now...

There was some happening before the A4j meeting started. And I need to talk on phone outside. During the conversation, I was deeply felt a type of not peace inside me... .... But I think is God had ended the call Himself without hurting her..

And I back to the hall and start to worship the Lord... >>>>> I felt a liitle bit heavy in my heart. And I start to pray in tongue..

Until we said we pray for our frens that still dunno what they doing.. We must be John the Baptist to tell them to repend as the His Kingdom is near.. And I start to understand what is at P.U.S.H and REVIVAL COSTS U EVTING!!

Only prayer can made the opportunity of change.. =)

Then I start to get inside the presence of the Lord in the worship.. I found it very wonderful indeed to stay inside the presence of the Holy Spirit... After when I am on my way back home, I start to step out the faith toward a cg member on her spiritual life recently.. Holy Spirit was with me and I felt the follow up had difference... Im thinking.. this is P.U.S.H..

Sometimes, we tot that we are the faithful servant if we doing this and that ministry. But zgod told me, It's absolutely wrong, we need to stay in her presence by PRAYER. Until the time God allow it to move, the great mountain will be moved. Just keep on ur work on PUSH only.. Amen

SOAR LIKE EAGLE

就是少年人也要疲乏困倦，强壮的也比全然跌倒。但那等候耶和华的必重新得力。他们必如鹰展翅上腾；他们奔跑却不困倦，行走也不疲乏。（赛40：30-31）

I went to Pastoral Conference in the last two days.. I just tot that I going there just for the ministry I am having. But my God is the only GOd that still talking!!

During the service, the PAstor shared about the title of FAITH. I've heard this for I think thousands time. haha.. But God told me something, not ASK, is TOLD..

He said: "Jenny, u not yet live out your FAITH"..

I was get STUNNED...

Oh, God.. To where I can hide you? You know my everything!!

Only You, that know the tot in my deepest heart..

I've been response very well in the service of His servants from oversea. Especially seeing His faith in serving the Lord, Building the Church, Raise Up people even in Turki, and some countries that you will never think of God's movement is there very strongly..

During the altar call, I have a divide appointment with God... ... ...

And I would very thanks God for that short moment..

God had raised me up from a tiring eagle, He taught me how to FLY AGAIN...

I've been listen to Eagle's story for few times, but this is the time I felt I soar like an eagle in the sky...

In the altar call,

I have actually have a deepest calling which I still need time to be prayed for it.. I know, God had preparing the way for me.. As He is my WAY, my LIFE, my TRUTH..

Therefore, I've made a decision in front of the God..

I want to have a deeper relationship with Him..

Like what I posted in my facebook...

我要比去年更爱耶稣，因为耶稣比去年更爱我了！！Amen....

Im the BLESSED Jenny Lee Lian Wei!! =)

Yesterday I was study till late of the night..

After that, when I went to bed, my mind, my emotion had get annoyed by something..... Can't describe it with words indeed... but just get annoyed... I try to write down all those feeling on the paper, still can't neglect the feeling which is deep inside me.....


At around 5am in the morning....
Something goes into my mind, which i think I can sleep after I having that tot....

My mind is stuck with many things in he moment:
---- regret---
----negative tot---
---those notes that i just memorize---
---bible verses that i memorize---
---etc---

Then I am saying, as the scientist said, ppl just use dunno how many % of their brain... What's in ur brain, Jenny?
At that time, i know, for sure, I shud let one of the list above to be the winner.. which one do i judge to be the winner.... If i judge regret, i will the slave of that.. the same goes to negative tot...

In the end, I will let bible verse to win.... In the sudden, i felt very release and fal asleep till morning edi...

Fellows, u r the one who decide who u shud thinking.. dun be the slave of unecessary things..

Remember, 那在我里面的，比那在世界的更大！！